Who's A Tarheel.....Me?

Yes, I suppose so. Considering I was born in the great state of North Carolina I can unequivocally declare that I am indeed a Tarheel. I have not lived there for many years but as I grow older, the desire to return to the land of my roots grows stronger most every day. It didn’t seem to be such a great place when I was young. Being the tender hearted kid that I was, it took some getting used to the bullying and fist fights that young boys are prone to favor. I guess it’s no different than any other place on earth where boys are growing up but, back then it seemed like a very rough way to live one’s life. By the time I was 12 years old it seemed apparent to me that each day when I left our little home I was gonna have to fight somebody. In the beginning I got beat up a lot but in time, I learned to adapt. Once I figured out the very real truth that I needed to pick some fights and win them then followed through on this knowledge, it did become more bearable for me personally. Fundamentally I had to adopt the credo to never back down and really, it boiled down to a question of respect and bragging rights. By the time I turned 14, my folks wanted to move to South Carolina where my stepdad was from and I remember the day we left, clearly thinking how happy I was to be moving. The years do roll on by though and with that comes some wisdom and understanding. Though I have traveled the world and all over this country, I’ve always had this soft voice in my heart whispering “come home”.

I remember the years that I attended junior high school there and I clearly remember having to study North Carolina history. The sad truth of the matter is that I wasn’t very interested and really didn’t learn much. That is truthfully a shame and the reality of that fact came to visit me one day when I was on active duty in the US Armed Forces. I had been assigned to do a stint in the galley (kitchen and associated appointments, for you land lubbers) and one of the young men there asked me where I was from. He was from Virginia if I rightly recall. When I told him North Carolina, he looked at me for a moment and called me a Tarheel. I bowed up proud with a grin and said yes I am. That’s when he asked me if I knew where that name came from. Though I did not, I said that I did and he of course put me on the spot by asking me to explain. When I fumbled around with the thing for a bit he told me in a condescending tone that the name Tarheel came from the Civil War (some people in the south call this the War of Northern Aggression). He went on further to say that it derived from the fact that soldiers from North Carolina were reluctant to get into the fight, holding back while soldiers from Virginia were leading the way in combat. In his explanation, the Carolina soldiers had tar on their heels using this as a metaphor for cowardice. Of course I blustered about that for minute but then went my own way. Honestly, I was ashamed because I did not know the truth of the name’s origin and could not refute this goober’s accusation. If I had only known then what I know now someone else would have been walking away shameful that day.

Tarheel, it is an odd name, yeah? Though the guy from Virginia did have one aspect of the origin right, the most questionable part was a total reverse of the truth. Historically, when North Carolina was a colony of the British Crown, they were an important source of the naval stores tar, pitch and turpentine used primarily by the English navy. It is said that at one time over 100,000 barrels of tar and pitch were shipped annually to England. Some historians claim that North Carolina led the world in production of naval stores from 1720 to 1870. Back in those days, they made the tar by piling up pine logs and burning them. The tar ran out of the pile into a channel for collection. The people of North Carolina were often referred to as Tar Boilers during that time and the name was not meant as a kindness but rather as a slur. Somehow along the way, about the time of the Civil War, the name had evolved into Tarheel but was still seen as derisive. Time passed though and the war progressed. The men of North Carolina that fought were brave and courageous. It is written in the third volume of Walter Clark’s “Histories of the Several Regiments from North Carolina in the Great War” that the nickname Tarheel came from the Carolina troop’s ability to hold ground in a battle. According to the book, North Carolina troops held their ground in Virginia while other supporting troops (Virginians) retreated. I’m sure the supporting troops were ashamed of their own running away from the conflict and taunted the Carolinians about the tar they were famous for and asked if there was any more for sale “down in the old north state”. The boys from Carolina said “No, old Jeff has bought it all up. He’s going to put on you’ns heels to make you stick better in the next fight”. In my mind, it is shameful and dishonorable to mask what is ones own historical cowardice by falsely claiming that cowardice belongs to another entity that had proven themselves valiant in the face of open war. If I could only face that question, from so long ago, again today.

Originally, I’m from an area of the state known as the Piedmont. You may wonder what that means and if you look it up in a dictionary you’ll find that it is defined as a plateau region between the Atlantic coastal plain and the Appalachian Mountains. The Piedmont extends from New York down through Alabama. It’s not exclusive to North Carolina but my home is the only place I’ve ever known that identifies itself to that geographic region. The state is divided into three sections, the Coastal Plain, the Piedmont and the Blue Ridge/Appalachian Mountains. It’s all beautiful and has a rich history that worth knowing. For the most part, the people are kind, wise and generous. There are some of the best universities in the world there. It is a center for some of the most advanced technical and medical research on the planet. Thinking back on what others have said about my own countrymen, I have a tendency to sneer “Tar Boilers, Indeed!”

When I was younger, I didn’t think about such things. Looking back on most of my adult life, I feel as if I’ve been somewhat a vagabond. Moving from here to there, I’ve never really had the feeling of being still. Like this is where I’ll live out the rest of my days. This is the place where they will put me in the ground. Funny how life seems to come around full circle, isn’t it? I just think that it may be time for me to go home.